so yeah
November 24, 2009
scarification freaks me right the fuck out.
i can’t even handle this chick
baby it’s cold outside
November 19, 2009
baking cakes
watching elf and various holiday movies
i’m loving all of this
perfect
November 13, 2009
clean room
fresh socks
and i will never take that toilet for granted again
life’s swell!
always
November 9, 2009
i still pray for the best to you.
uhh
November 4, 2009
criticizing a book about art criticism
not how i pictured my weekends.
new leaf
October 29, 2009
no more hard feelings. no more avoidance. i’m ready to start living again, under my own terms. i’m proud of myself. i’m proud of the things i’ve done for myself and everyone that i love.
i’m going to be open to everything, to new experiences, to new people to whatever comes my way.
i talked to an old but really great friend today and him and i are in similar positions emotionally and i really hope things work out with him and his girl. it was just refreshing to be reminded that i have such great people in my life.
i’m going to get back into volunteering, i’ve missed it. i’m knitting scarves and hats for orphanages in romania. i can’t wait to get started.
also, halloween is approaching and i’ve decided to forgo parties to spend it with my mom. she’s still not doing all that great but is trying to hide it. i just want to have special times with her. as many as possible. that sounds really corny but almost losing her broke me.
How many days have I lost?
How can I get back to the place where I started?
I’m outside a house, trying to find my way in.
But it is locked and the blinds are down, and I’ve lost the key, and I can’t remember what the rooms look like or where I put anything.
And if I dare go inside, I wonder…will I ever be able to find my way out?
it’s just
October 20, 2009
as soon as things are really looking up, you get blind sided by something that could just break you. completely shatter you and there’s nothing you can do to help. i’m terrified to see her. i want to give her everything she needs, but I’m too scared.
i need to be around people that really love me. that can be there for me. now more than ever. i’m too scared.
these days
October 14, 2009
i had a lover
i don’t think i risk another these days
and if i seem to be afraid to live the life that i have made in song
it’s just that i’ve been losing so long
.
please don’t confront me with my failures, i had not forgotten them.
ugh
October 8, 2009
too much sushi and hors d’oeuvres
i will never buy student food
never never never never
October 1, 2009
peace out problems, what’s up best weekend ever?
i rekindled about 9 friendships in the past week. it’s all good. i love life.